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days away

2010-11-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

exams are dONE!!!!!!! and im 11 days away from home ;D needless to say, im exCited ;D hmm.. today james (focus in charge) asked me if ive changed.. and to expect that ive changed.. hm it'll be a time of reflection b4 i return eh.. cant say ive not changed since ive been here.. who wldnt be being away from home for 9.5mnths~

more on that another day.. im off to dream land for now :)

dreams

2010-11-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

wished i dreamt of what i studied, have them all solidified in my brain..
rather than dreaming of u.. really, juz wait 7 more days~ please~

jinjja, geunyang chil il gidariyeo~ jabal~

SHINee - Scar

2010-11-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

this one has been on replay the past few days too.. too bad this one hasnt been promoted on stage.. this was one of the few live performances i cld find.. help. i need to stop. hur~ time to study~ i think i shld switch my lappy off hur~

plans

2010-11-03T22:24:00.003+08:00

was looking at some korean universtities.. some have summer language programs :) 3weeks, accommodation included etc.. costs S$1500 ;) cld be sth i can look forward to doing hee~ juz thinking whether to do it in seoul or daegu.. coz ive got frens in daegu hur~

my library of korean songs is really growing~ think im even more current than some koreans are haha..

hoping to check out if i can do some korean language courses in singapore :) sigh.. really wanna get some proper lessons in hopes that i learn faster, and can form proper sentences..

SHINee - Hello

2010-11-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

had to repost this since the previous one cldnt play :) ive got most of the steps down in my head now haha..

juz me~

2010-11-02T20:18:00.004+08:00

i wonder if ive become my own fren here.. almost a loner kind of fren haha.. ive become quite a camwhore taking photos of myself.. ive learnt how to act cute~ quite scary that one hAha! as this photo will show u haha..

i havent had pig tails since i was 7!! i muz say, it dOes look really cute hAha! i actually talk to myself in my head alot.. if not i juz stone~ im very good at that now.. i can wake up in the mornings and sit in my bed staring out the window for 20min haha~

hm wonder if people will think ive changed~

heLLo heLLo~

2010-10-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

im not like wat~

2010-09-25T20:20:00.004+08:00

seriously need to gripe..
bcz im really annoyed..
wat do u mean u thought im not like that..
like wat exactly.. juz bcz i walked a different route and u cant find me..
u knew itz not like i wanted to go anywayz..
i was being nice.. anywayz i told u i'll walk..
why didnt u call me b4 u started driving to check where i was then u wldnt have needed to drive ard looking for me..

spoiled my mood the rest of the night~
not that i was in the mood anywayz

hUG me!!

2010-09-11T16:15:00.003+08:00

hUg me!!!
seriously.. dun think ive gone this long without hugging someone haha..
in sg i wldve gone crazy.. the worst downside to being a hugger~
and hugging ur pillow is not the same thing ok people.. not even close..
since im on the topic, why not discuss the pros and cons to being a hugger.. feel free to add on people haha..

the downs first since itz so depressing..
- u cant juz hug anyone.. they'll get the wrong idea..
they'll think ure mad, ure loose, or juz plain weird..

- in a foreign country (like where i am now) and not close enuff to people (such is my situation now), u cant really juz hug anyone bcz of the above reason haha..

- u hug a sweaty person and u get wet too..

- u hug a person with bad BO and it sticks on u~ ewwwwww~

cant really think of any else..

hmm upsides..
- u can show ur affection :)
- u naturally feel all warm and happy aft a hug ;D
- it really can lift ur spirits or comfort when there are no words :)
- hug a someone who smells really good and u will too :)

wat else? hmmm~

gonna be home soon!!

2010-09-05T20:56:00.003+08:00

people!! ive got my ticket back home!! heeheeheeheee~
reALLy excited abt it haha.. i keep flipping my planner to that date haha..
oh, will be flying at 1850h 28nov ;D will land in sg juz b4 midnite i think hee..
and i will be in sg for almost 3 full months flying back here 24 feb hur~

12 weeks to go!! woOhoO!
hopefully thatz incentive for me to study hard the rest of this semester eh..

praise God the healer of all ;D

2010-08-29T20:12:00.002+08:00

mummy can eat again!!
oh the things we take for granted..
apparently daddy says shez eating non-stop now haha..
wish i cld be there to cook and stuff.. that chance will come in 14weeks :)
next milestone, surgery to get her skull back in oct 5th :)
cant praise God enuff for the quick recovery..
honestly itz only been 2 and half months..
im very glad that when im back, i'll have the same mummy as b4 hur~

awesome quote

2010-08-23T19:38:00.001+08:00

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.
- C.S. Lewis

thank you Lord

2010-08-20T16:25:00.001+08:00

thank you for another day of life, a world I did not create, a salvation I can never earn, and a grace I don't deserved...

out of my mind

2010-08-19T13:55:00.001+08:00

wat folly~

calling home

2010-08-17T22:47:00.003+08:00

spoke to mummy today :)
she sounds absolutely normal :)
i dunno.. im always afraid/apprehensive when talking to mummy in fear that she cant understand me or i cant understand her.. afraid shez not the same as b4.. in a way, im glad she gets to recover sufficiently b4 i see her again at the end of the year.. i really dunno how i wld react if i go home now..

in other news, haley and jojo has fur mites!!! dandruff-white bugs that can be seen cRAWLing on them!!! grOss!! medication is ex too~ and i think now our house is infected haha~

missing home~

2010-08-15T22:54:00.002+08:00

for some weird reason,
im missing home.. to the point of tears running..
and im pretty sure itz not my pms..

15weeks.
im sure it'll be gone in a blink of an eye

씬

2010-08-14T21:52:00.001+08:00

hArhar my name in korean :D 씬 xin haha..
haha if u do a direct translation, it means thin bwahaha~
hopefully thatz wat i'll become eh..
thin but fit tho hur~

aw man..

2010-08-13T22:52:00.001+08:00

watched a mini movie at bible study today..
during the mother daughter scene, i cried~ bleah~

change in my pocket

2010-08-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

some wont believe it, but ive only got $4.50 for next week hur~

付出的爱

2010-08-07T20:34:00.001+08:00

每当我想起你宝贵十架
为了我的过犯你受刑罚
为了我得医治你受鞭伤
为了我得救赎付上代价

每当我想起你牺牲的爱
我要高举双手献上敬拜
我的心要不停献上感谢
主耶稣你为我做的一切

尊贵羔羊配得我赞美
荣耀君王配得我尊崇
再次献上赞美祭我灵向你歌唱
感谢主你为我付出的爱

there goes another~

2010-08-01T10:57:00.003+08:00

wow~ the month kinda juz flew past.. itz now 4mnths til im home..
cant imagine honestly.. it means that i'll be taking exams again in 3.5mnths!! crAp!!
actually i think it might be lesser than 3.5mnths to exams..

first week of uni.. bleah~ cant say im totally looking forward to it..
the mods im taking this sem are really heavy.. im doing bio: cells, molecules and organisms, chem102 which is essentially organic chem, anatomy&phys 112, and fundamentals of nutrition.. my nutrition mod seems to be the saving grace.. itz heavy but at least itz sth i'll enjoy.. learning abt diff food files ie diets for diabetics, high protein low fat diets.. and we get to actually try out and record these diets for ourselves ;) sounds like sth right down my alley heehee~

the others, sigh~ alr chem is looking pretty daunting aft juz the first week of lects.. i need to find a way to retain everyth, dunno if my brain has that big a capacity bwahaha~

hm also, melody has left aussie returning to taiwan.. oscarz leaving tmr morning.. charliez leaving end of the month.. sigh~ the group of frens i hang with has juz been reduced by half~ will need to get used to it.. seeing that i'll be here longer than most coz im doing my 3yr bach and everyone else is doing a 2yr masters with most starting b4 me.. bitter sweet really..

im really accumulating lOads of stuff.. juz got a printer from oscar and a blender from melody haha~ my room is getting smaller hur~

oh yar, it looks like im stepping up my service in focus.. im still not concretely sure watz in store but i know that i'll definitely be more involved.. therez a big week in un too.. week4 is Jesus week.. ECU and FOCUS will be wearing hoodies that proclaim Jesus and we'll be walking ard on campus walking the talk.. itz gonna be an exciting week ;D ray galea will be speaking at the lunch time seminars during Jesus week :D im definitely looking forward~

so pray for me guys~
the waves are crashing agst my shore this sem..

and so..

2010-07-02T19:35:00.004+08:00

hm so itz week one into the hols and im enjoying not worrying abt uni work and exams and stuff :) so far, ive flUshed the bathroom/toilet (pun tOtally intended ;D), changed and washed my sheets, vacuumed my room, went canoeing, had frens over for lunch and dinner.. but eh, ive yet to plan for my melb trip hur~ sorry ling haha.. but ive had stuff highlighted in my lonely planet book alr :) juz need to get them planned out right :)

hm MYC next week!! im excited to hear what God has to say, no that hez not speaking to me everyday.. but u know how we only open our ears and eyes when camps and such come around.. bad habit eh.. and im hoping to make more frens from ECU as well hee~ and to get some frisbee playing time in haha..

heard itz gonna be like sub zero where we're camping o.O im sO bringing my quilt haha! and aLL my sweaters.. shld i bring my luggage?! haha!

world cup QFs are here!! so roOting for netherlands over brazil.. the oranje need to be ruthless.. squirk some juice in their eyes or sth haha~ will miss the semis coz of myc but im not losing sleep over that.. but i'll definitely be back for the finals hoho~ im going for netherlands and germany in the finals ;D

looking forward to week 2 and 3 of the hols and a relaxing week 4 b4 uni starts again ;)

beach effect

2010-06-24T21:07:00.004+08:00

aft my last paper today, i felt relieved.. but more than that, i felt drained and tired.. not coz of studying, but prolly coz ive been surpressing emotions the past few days so i cld study.. aft a quick visit to the fruit market to stock up, i juz hAd to go for a run..

ran to a more secluded part of the beach and the moment i sat down, the tears came hard.. (therez sth abt water and crying haha.. ive had the 'best' cries in the shower) sat there for awhile until i decided that i shld let myself freeze in the cold wind.. oh, said a prayer at the beach b4 i left so that i wldnt be stuck in this 'crying' (hopefully not wallowing state).. that my faith in God will not falter and like the song, "though my heart is torn, i will praise Him" bcz he is who he is.. and only he can sustain us in this period of difficulty..

u know how people alwayz ask how are u? or sth to that effect, esp in australia.. nowadays, i feel like im lying haha.. i mean, like if this personz juz an aquintance, wld they want to know that im not ok and tt ive been crying coz my mum is recovering frm brain surgery haha~ well, for most part i tell people im pretty ok haha..

started a countdown til im home..
it stands at 21weeks :)

if i call..

2010-06-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

hi frens.. i know everyone has said if i wanna talk, juz call..
but honestly, i dun think ive got anyth to say..
itz juz tears haha.. so if i call, u'll only hear me crying~ hur~
so if u dun mind juz hearing crying on my side then yar ookz.. i'll call the next time i break down haha.. but thanx very much for offering a hearing ear :) truly appreciate it..

meow~

2010-06-22T09:02:00.001+08:00

lacking mAjor motivation to concentrate~
how liddat~

cant stop them~

2010-06-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

cant stop the tears..
skyped mummy in the rehab hospital today and dunno if it was a good idea now.. ive still got 2 papers to go but the tears juz keep streaming down my face everytime i think i wont have a "normal" mum again..

didnt know it was to this extent.. i dunno if she understands wat shez saying.. she seems to be ok but says sth a little off.. i cldnt take it not being able to have a normal conversation with her.. crap~ here i go welling up again~ juz completely broke down a few times juz now.. now i know why people eat when theyre upset, i juz might do that if i werent educated abt comfort eating and the fact tt im studying to be a nutrtitionist hur~

shall have to will myself to concentrate the next 2days.. thank goodness itz only the next 2days.. need to regroup and focus..

God help me. give me strength. give me focus. take my tears away.
now i know why suddenly the other day i hAppened to come across casting crownz song "praise u in this storm" and the lyrics "You are who You are, no matter where i am" juz kept going on in my head.. aiya, frankly itz the first half of the song lah..

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've criedYou hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

again~

2010-06-07T13:32:00.001+08:00

dreamt that i flew home and mummy and peiyi was at the airport to pick me up..
sigh~ hate dreaming of home~

what if

2010-06-06T20:12:00.001+08:00

been thinking..
with mummy making it thru surgery and being in the hospital and all..
everyone keeps saying that she'll be fine..
trust God to take care of her, heal her..

but i wonder..
what if God's way of taking care of her was to take her home with him..
wat He wants may not be wat we want..

and if mummy really did return to God, how wld i respond?
wld i still give thanks? wld i qn God's way?
wld it be fair that God let it happen while im far from home?
im afraid to answer those qns.. im juz thankful now that mummy is alive..

im 24weeks from travelling home..
praying that God keeps mummy alive til then..

remembering that he is the Almighty God who holds our lives in his hands..
remembering he is the one who sustains every breath we take, every heartbeat..
remembering our immense weakness and fraility..
remembering our great need, spiritually more so than physically..

- as posted on my facebook note

trusting in the assurances of God

2010-06-06T20:10:00.001+08:00

juz had a major crying session :(
thanx jie for calling and praying for me..
muz rmb to trust in the assurances and promises of God..

May Jesus assure you that as you follow Him
you will never meet a fear He cannot conquer,
you will never face an enemy He cannot defeat,
you will never enter a battle He cannot win,
you will never have a need He cannot meet,
you will never face a temptation He cannot overcome,
you will never have a burden He cannot lift,
you will never face a problem He cannot solve,
you will never have a bondage He cannot break,
you will never have a moment when He does not care,
you will never have a time when He is not there.

I have strength for all things in Christ who empowers me
[I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ's sufficiency].
Philippians 4:13

AMP Devotional by Roy Lessin

:(

2010-05-31T17:22:00.000+08:00

dreamt that i flew home last nite :(

woosh~

2010-05-29T20:02:00.004+08:00

and im wondering who blogs nowadays.. im juz constantly hitting the refresh button on facebook hur~

exams are in under 3weeks.. and i shld really be more anxious abt it.. but honestly, im seriously not flustered. at all. hur~ dunno if itz a good or bad thing.. well at least i know i shld be studying.. and thatz what im planning to do in the next few days and of coz in the weeks up til exams.. cant believe im almost done with my first semester.. scary how fast it went and it means that i might even graduate soon haha! well thatz really pushing it haha.. at the moment, im juz looking forward to the hols when i have all the time to clean the house, cook and exercise hur~ and of coz therez mid-year conference that im quite pumped abt :) to learn abt the cross, wat an awesome topic.. sth we always need to look towards and rmb what took place on the cross.. aft that, therez melb w ling :) glad to be seeing her more than juz during the summer break haha..

hm, to be honest, i wish i cld go back to sg.. i wanna see mummy.. yes, i know she said shez fine, and shez stable and all.. but i wanna see her in the flesh.. it'll be another 6months b4 i see her again.. itz tough.. im praying nothing else happens.. being here, i imagined the worst.. and who wld blame me rite.. and who do i tell? where do i turn? sigh~ i juz hope she gets out of the hospital soon and then mayb we can skype at home.. havent even been able to talk to her at length.. was lost the day aft finding out.. was wandering ard my room and juz doing random meaningless things coz i cldnt concentrate doing sth that needed thinking.. on sunday while walking to church i wld get teary eyed.. then during worship the tears automatically came.. good thing that sat and sunday there were visitors from sg and i spent quite a bit of time with them.. coz the short few hours i was alone wasnt the best..

need to keep reminding myself God is in control.. my bible reading kept telling me to give thanx.. for which i am thankful :)

but therez also good news at the home front too :) erjiez got a boyfren!!!!!! :D so exCited for her haha.. i know itz early days but im her sister, itz only natural to be hAppy, elated even haha.. praying that the relationship will be bound by God and they will always point each other to the Cross.. that way, the relationship will never sour bcz God is the glue :)

drag me along pls..

2010-04-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

u know there are times when u are faced with a situation with the right and wrong option to choose.. u know the path u shld tOtally go down, but ure left standing at the fork staring down the other option.. telling urself tt the road will turn back around and u'll be able to go back down the right path again, itz only a detour so no biggie.. and so u take a step onto tt left path, stand there a bit but take a step back again coz u juz knOw that u shld be taking the right one.. sigh~ wish i cld have someone on the right path in front of me to juz drag me along right behind her..

u tell urself the detour is nth and wont have an impact on the later journeys.. but u knOw it'll make a difference.. itz like a stain, even if itz washed, itz faded, but u'll alwAys know it was there.. know wat i mean? someone pls juz get my eyes off the left path that looks like a cooler choice but know it'll lead me down a cruel end..

irOnies

2010-04-13T20:35:00.002+08:00

needed sleep and totally wanted to sleep last nite, but cldnt sleep well coz my nose was dripping and throat was dry..

was thinking whether to go to sch today.. it was too warm under the blankets and too cold to get out from under.. missing sch wld mean me missing too much content and too much trouble trying to catch up on my own and getting notes from frens.. on the other hand, going to sch with a runny/blocked nose and a developing fever is not ideal either.. decided to go for the best of the two evils - to sch it is..

walking to the busstop, the sun was shining and quite warm.. so i took my sweater off.. but the wind was too cold.. had to put it back on~ wat on earth..

the sunz too hot, shadez too cold, lecture hall juz as cold.. thot indoors wld be better but they had the ventilators blowing at u.. warmest place i discovered was the toilet.. stood in there for a while.. listening to my ipod and drinking hot water haha..

today during psych tut and lect, the topic was visual illusions.. not the best thing when ure sick and alr cant focus well to look at a spirals, stare at a picture that makes u see things, or see black dots that arent really there.. i juz teared and had to close my eyes or look away lest i get a migrane on the spot haha.. sigh~

im glad the day has ended and im seriously gonna tuck myself into bed now..
hopefully i'll feel better in the morning.. *sniff*

i think im a cat..

2010-04-01T07:14:00.003+08:00

reALLy.. i think im a cat haha..
itz the only reason i can think of why dogs have been chasing me haha..
everyday when i walk out to the busstop, there will be dogs barking when i pass by some houses.. and on 2 occasions now, 2 different dogs have actually ran out of the house attempting to chase me, barking mad little dogs..

i mUz be a cat.. meOw~

move it move it~

2010-03-27T19:56:00.002+08:00

when ure away from home and cooped up in a room in someone elsez house, u finally understand what family really is.. had lunch at jamesz place today.. hez one of the full time workers at FOCUS.. invited clauds and i over for lunch to meet his family (: his wife is singaporean, spent half her time her and half in sg.. their house is a home (: feel so comfortable there.. and ive been given the open invitation to come visit any time :D heehee~ maria told me i can cook in their kitchen anytime haha.. i did the apple dessert thingy at their place aft lunch today.. only i sliced it this time and didnt add apple juice.. (: turned out well hee~ was thinking we cld make a cheap crumble out of it haha.. juz might try it..

moving out is exciting!! at least to a place i can move ard the house freely, and not juz stay in my room.. but i still dun have a bed.. hope to get one soon.. monday hopefully.. going down to this girlz place to take a look at her bed and some other stuff (: then aft that have to think how to transport it to my new place haha..

sigh.. cant wait to move out..

five loaves two fishes

2010-03-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

was juz listening to my christian playlist on my ipod.. and this song really struck me..
so i thot i'll share it.. itz five loaves and two fishes by corrinne may.. if u want e mp3 lemme know and i'll send it tu u ;)

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

God wants a piece..

2010-03-06T17:09:00.003+08:00

so.. itz the first week of sch and ive survived hee~ lots of reading to do and self studying..
i actually sat in the library reading the recommended readings coz the texts is only available on short loan (2hrs loan only, most textbks are on short loan so people dun borrow them home and keep renewing the loan) but aft that i went home and bummed the whole day when i was suppose to do my chem tut haha..

watz even cooler than sch is God's word haha.. all the churchy things ive been to these two weeks have been to return to God's love, ur first love.. makes u want to move ur hands and feet for God (:

last thursday during FOCUS (fellowship of overseas christian union student), the text was rom 8:28-39 and it was on the amazing power of love.. basically it was abt the assurance of God's love, "for i am persuaded..." the song that came to mind was the love of God.. "the love of God is greater far than tongue or pen can ever tell.. it goes beyond the highest star and reaches to the lowest hell..."

last sunday, i was at st. michael's angelican church and it was abt God's grace to us eph 6:24.. we shld begin and end our lives by his grace, juz as how paul wrote his letters.. a reminder to return to the "first work" (rev 2:4), our first instince shld be to love God (1 john 4:19), and that we need to plan our lives to get closer to God everyday.. that shld be our response to his love and graciousness.. and even when the well becomes dry, we shld keep looking at the cross bcz his grace will sustain us..

ECU (evangelical christian union) has a wed lunch time bible talk.. itz a short time of singing then a short word on the bible.. this guy richard chin (think he grew up in sg but hez got an aussie slang liao) spoke on true love with text from malachi 1:1-5 it was abt how israel in their state of poverty cld not look outside circumstances to see the true wrath of God upon the edomites..

God has predestined us, chosen us despite our unloveable state.. and not juz chosen but chosen heirs of God (eph 1:4-5) therefore we shld trust in his true love toward us (rom 5:8-9), bathe in it and never doubt the cross despite the "poverty" we may be facing.. bcz the greAt is the God beyond the borders of our israel..

on thursday at FOCUS, we had the word from mark 1:1.. it was basically introducing the gospel to people attending.. (for some, itz their first time hearing abt Jesus Christ).. it juz reminded me abt the cross, the battle and victory Jesus has won over sin and death.. our redemption and how we shld be celebrating and announcing it worldwide..

on friday, bcz i had nth on and since sch isnt crazy yet.. i went a bit mAd and decided to attend the mandarin bible study hahaa.. fortunately i understood most parts of it haha (: my chinese isnt so bad! anywayz, haha.. the bible studies are on the same passages as during FOCUS, we covered mark 1:1-15.. itz funny, the qns asked were so simple i cldnt answer them! itz juz that when u read the passage, as christians we take the whole thing rite.. but w pre-believers and people who have juz come across christ for the first time, u have to explain everyth.. itz like doing seekers in chinese haha.. the very positive thing is that they were reponsive.. they understood what we were saying, they cld process and ask qns needed to clarify the faith..

itz truly refreshing tho, i alr feel blessed to be born to christian parents, but this really puts things into an even greater perspective..

clearly i need to love God more.. gotta give God our first piece, first priortiy, our only loyalty..

tikka chicken curry dinner

2010-02-28T20:51:00.002+08:00

herez me having dinner tonight (: itz tikka curry with chicken breast i cooked the other day.. juz reheated it and cooked some rice to have with the curry hee~ looks pretty good yea.. and yeA im wearing the new life tee!! heehee~ oh guys, if u read my blog, try to comment kz haha.. click on the grEEN tag tab :D

now i know wat love is..

2010-02-28T12:24:00.002+08:00

hey guys!!!!
;) it was lOvely to hear ur voices today.. thanx jie for putting them on (:
never knew i'd miss u guys like that.. dun worry abt me crying when im on the phone.. it always happens haha.. u guys shld be happy it happens anywayz haha ;D im really not homesick.. but hearing ur voices, it definitely makes me miss u guys..

try to keep the frisbee numbers up kz haha.. drag people along!! make a deal with them!! haha.. eh mayb partly coz sch has started yar.. ryan and the younger ones cant go or itz more difficult for them coz of parents and stuff.. get the other cgs to join in (: the RAYS ones esp.. get edwin and bunch to get their cg to go haha.. honestly, dun do it bcz of me lah haha.. it was really for u guys to make new frens and maintain bonds in a more fun way.. look how much we grew closer from frisbee :) oh and keep fit and for people like jerrold, to get a tan haha.. get jan to go! his poly life is over and he needs to get fit for army hArhar~

ooh ive seen the love is poster.. itz so pop art hee~ with the sms language there.. very coOL~ u guys shld try to be part of it.. project p was very cool and im sure this one wld too.. keep me updated (:

need my space

2010-02-28T07:41:00.003+08:00

eh.. have u seen a grown man in his 40s play war craft for 3days straight?!!! and hez still playing it today!! unbelieveable.. no wOnder hez got a belly! so much for being "an athlete when i was younger"..

he called me a bear, saying i hibernate in my room.. that im starting uni too early and attempted to test my on chem.. bleah.. he might think hez helping but he needs to realize (as he keeps mentioning that im alr older) that i need my 22year old space haha.. wonder wat i shld call him seeing hez been on war craft the past 3days coming to 3.5days haha..

and hez like, come on.. letz talk abt the chemistry uve been reading abt.. frankly, if im comfortable with u i juz might.. but not when ure effectively flaunting ur chem knowledge *rolleyes* "i got a distinction in chem when i was in sch" that was when u were in sch like how mANy years ago?!! eh im juz being sacrastic.. i juz feel itz my space being intruded in again..

sigh.. everytime an encounter like this happens, i think whether i shld move out..
but really this place isnt too bad.. ive got most things provided tt prolly wld have to spend on if i move out.. and ive got a pretty clean room and house in general.. i even have a table lamp on my table so i can study at night.. my room wld actually be one of the better ones it seems..

oh hey daddy, found out that on campus, there are rooms at $150/week! juz need to pay $30 extra for internet i think.. u think i shld check it out?? if not i might ask ard in church, perhaps wait to know more frens (:

oOh!! itz rAining!! :D with lots of thUNDer!! bwahahaahaa.. lOve it!!!
eh so much for planning to run later hur~ oh well..

been like downloading lOAds of old Kpop stuff.. stuff from the early 2000s hahaa.. piglet!! fly to the sky is like niCe leh~ DBSK also not bad (: and oh, i know im a bit late but ive started listening to some of big bang's stuff.. think haru haru and lies are the nicer ones.. ooh, beast's new album sounds good hur~ prolly gonna check out g.o.d tonite.. apparently their name stands for groove over dose hAha~ the koreans lOve acronyms.. wAy more than singaporeans.. beast stands for boys from the east are search's top or sth like that lah.. forgot haha.. peiyi: i think im gonna know more abt kpop then u when i return haha.. trying to stick to my asian roots bwahahhaa.. that sounds so funny coz im not korean but in this part of the world, i guess it doesnt matter haha..

u know ive been thinking abt this kpop thing.. no matter how "rebellious" the image the company creates for u.. ur band will always dress in matching outfits when performing hAha~ i think itz hilarious.. and u can even dance in syncro and in formation haha.. coOLness.. rebelling in line haha..

i miss home when...

2010-02-25T19:48:00.002+08:00

i hear mummy, daddy, piglet, erjie and dajie's voice..
i hear that the cats are rubbing my shoes to get my scent..
piglet wants to record kpop but forgets im not ard..
you guys email or leave msges saying im missed..
sunday comes ard and i dun have a church..
i have no one to hug..
i cant go out on my own aft dark..
i cant be my crazy self..
i know im gonna miss my cousin's 21st..
i dun hear korean spoken all the time..
i went to hillsongs and had a blast at worship like i wld in covenant..
i cant fellowship with u guys..
insects appear on my room floor and i have to smAsh them..
i have to save and watch every cent i spend..
a stranger is the one at my room door and not my sister..
i re-read the cards written to me..
i dun hear my sisters talking while im on my bed..
i feel uncomfortable in my own room..
i dunno wat im reading in my chem mod subject outline..
im craving bak kwa and pineapple tarts..
i havent even heard myself say lah or loh for a few days..

im sure the list grows the longer i stay bcz home is still the best place on earth..
or maby it'll shorten.. hopefully it does..
i guess im not being myself now, i usually embrace the new haha..
keep reminding myself that ive worked too hard and too long to get here..
and that God's everlasting love keeps me afloat and itz striving for me to succeed..

yet another day..

2010-02-24T19:52:00.003+08:00

had orientation today.. met my course mates and stuff.. there arent many asians at all, the 2 hongkongers i met were doing their masters.. my peers are all caucasian hur~ doesnt help that im like 2-4 yrs older hur~

honestly i dun feel myself here.. less frenly, and i dun feel a great urge to get to know someone haha.. ive become a loner!! well, met a malaysian today.. shez 19 and shez like when im uber crazy in sg haha.. talk abt 一山还有一山高 haha.. translated: therez always a mountain higher than another mountain.. she juz chiong one lor haha.. quite funny.. mayb itz her age, mayb itz bcz shez more street wise seeing shez malaysian hur~

we're thinking of moving in together (: coz she cant cook and i can.. and shez got stuff like hair dyer and other stuff that i dun haha.. she came over for dinner today hur~ had some pasta that i cooked and stored in the freezer..

oh, and bcz of her, i went to play soccer today hur~ it was a sch team thingy.. dunno if i will continue even if i make the team.. dunno leh.. see how.. coz im playing frisbee too.. might have to give up one.. from experience, soccer girls tend to be more cliquish hur~ i cld be wrong.. i had a good time today tho (: a bit rusty but i think im good hur~ wonder if i'll ache tmr with me not having exercised for so long..

oh, im going to the rainforest tmr.. haha yar u read right.. the rainforest.. itz a FOCUS thingy (evangelical arm of the evangelical christians union ECU).. picnic and stuff.. so im waking up to do some potato salad for food..

need to finish reading my chem chapters b4 sch starts on monday.. dun wanna completely die when lectures start.. so worried i wont understand lectures.. crap.. u know, i havent heard cations and ions in well, eons haha.. i actually have to practice balancing an equation, thatz exactly how bad my sitaution is.. sigh~ honestly.. hoping bcz im older i shld be able to handle a larger influx of information and process it faster haha..

i had alot of things in my head i wanted to blog abt, but itz all juz dissolved into my head somewhere haha.. when it surfaces, i'll need to write them down hur..

so im in aussie rite..

2010-02-21T13:56:00.004+08:00

so.. im in aussie yea.. i trust that those who read this alr reads my emails hur~ will go into more detail here i guess.. emails are surface thingys..

u know i visited hillsongs yest nite rite.. and the worship was greAt as it shld be rite.. itz hillsongs! but i think pulpit wise, i'd like sth meatier, more substance in terms of bible word and stuff.. (:

anywayz, it was an hr and a half drive there and back.. on the way back, my host started to want to talk abt theology and stuff.. im like okaay.. then we happen to talk abt speaking tongues.. and he tried to convince me that i was too conservative in my christian thinking, that i shld relearn what i know.. that i shld speak in tongues and stuff.. and im like whAt?! nO way!! he tried to back it up with scripture but i honestly think itz flawed coz itz taken out of context and hez reading that one verse and not the verses aft.. and hez kinda putting in earthly thinking and logic into his reasoning etc.. i gave my point of view and why i didnt speak in tongue and why i dun think it was necessary.. but he juz kept going on abt how i dunno what i dunno.. (btw, now i hate that phrase.. he uses it on everyth.. if i hear anyone say it i'll roll me eyes haha..) he thinks my christian life is lacking *rolleyes*

basically aft a while i juz kept quiet.. thankfully we were alr reaching home.. im juz gonna ignore it and let him have his way juz bcz we're living together..but i think i might have to find another place to stay if he pursues this.. his christian beliefs seem to be different.. esp the part abt receiving the spirit only when uve learnt to speak in tongues.. thatz mAJOr actually.. i'll see how things go..

honestly hez not very spiritual despite him being able to quote scripture and being able to refer to the greek and hebrew bible.. his doctrine is clearly not stable and slightly flawed.. he doesnt do devotion, doesnt pray, doesnt even attend church regularly.. so much for staying with christians..

personally, if i analyze his personality.. he used to be an athlete, track cyclist.. but now hez unfit and always going on abt what he cld do last time.. he alwayz wants to be right, and aLWAys finds a way to put a word into someone else's conversation even tho he wasnt originally in the convo.. very outcast type of personality from what i see haha.. those where people say hi to u, make frenly talk but if u organize a party, they wont turn up.. haha.. yar, that kind of person.. sad really..

and hez alwayz doing things for me without telling me, eg, cooking my share of dinner, downloading windows 7 for me. then itz like, it makes it difficult for me to say no, know wat i mean.. so yar.. today he assumed that i'll agree to him cooking me dinner everyday and i'll pay him.. but it works out to like $4.30per dinner and i think i can prepare my own dinner below that price.. so i told him i'd make my own dinners for the next 2 weeks and compare prices then i'll let him know if i wanna take up his dinner offer.. funny thing is that i alr told him in an email that i wont share dinner.. bleah..

im visiting wollongong baptist tonite.. got someone to pick me up (: hopefully send me back too hur~ itz mUCh nearer where im staying so once i know where it is and im familiar, i'll be able to go on my own or sth.. heard that the word's really strong there, theyve got a good preacher so i hope it meets my needs and there'll be a community there for me (:

change is constant

2009-11-01T00:56:00.006+08:00

wOw..... last post was in august eh..
anywayz.. some major updates.. hur~ talk abt how change is constant manz..

rmb the double i decided to take up.. well, it was paid for, and i was waiting for the confirmation of enrollment.. it was a week plus alr, and was abt to call the agency when they called me first.. told me QUT rescind my offer!! apparently theyve replaced my human movement bach with a bach in exercise and movement sci.. and it wont be an option for me coz they are only opening it up to locals next year.. honestly i dunno why they cant admit me, coz the modules are practically the same!! wat irresponsibile people rite!! and this is like 1st wk of oct when uni applications close end of oct!!

so scrambled to apply to uni of wollongong and uni of newcatle, bach in nutrition & dietetics..
amAZingly, newcastle replied juz aft a week! and looks to be the uni im going to.. coz wollongong hasnt offered.. newcastle's juz under 2hrs outside sydney btw (: and found out theyve got a female soccer team yo! and frisbee too!! haha mayb blessing in disguise.. my fees are 2k cheaper, and rental is much cheaper too coz im in the suburbs.. now im juz waiting for stupid QUT to return my money.. they sent it on monday only when ive submitted the reimbursement form almost a week prior.. suppose to reach me within 7working days.. seriously, they suck manz..

at least im still going to to uni.. itz juz 11weeks to my last day hee~
getting all bUbbly thinking abt it haha..

eh apparently i can sue haha.. but me no money.. anyone who knows of a lawyer who wants to do some pro bono hur~

on a happier mode, i bought a pair of orange mercury vapours in celebration of finding out uni of newcastle has a female soccer team heehee~ only $50 yea, on sale hur~

and im baking tmr :D some whole wheat spiced apple muffins (:
will see how they turn out..

waiting for the utd vs blackburn match to start..
juz watched liverpool self destruct.. like ive been telling everybody, no worries abt utd losing to pool.. utd will still win the league coz pool will goa on and lose to small teams like stoke or in tonitez case, fulham haha..

carragher finAlly got sent off for a last man challenge.. honestly shld have been sent off when he pulled owen down last week..

mOve it mOve it :D

2009-08-16T23:24:00.001+08:00

heehee~ in a week, i'll be in london, edinburgh and manchester (:
unbelievable really.. think i wont believe it until i land at heathrow airport.. ok lah, mayb when im on the plane haha.. will be there from 23rd sep to 3sep :D

so anywayz, the main reason why im there is to watch utd play live :D and agst arsenal heehee~ cant wait for match day, walking ard with every one wearing a utd jersey.. be seated in old trafford and hearing the stadium sing the player's cheers.. soaking in the atmosphere of 76,000 people.. sth i cant imagine manz.. i hope they sing solskjaerz song, that will sO rOCk!

will post stuff on facebook when im back lah yar :D

that aside, i was juz thinking the other day.. itz 4 months to my last day at work and 5 months til i leave for brissy.. coOLness right :D haha.. means that i'll need to get stuff settled soon.. gonna accept my offer within the week and im starting to look for accommodation alr.. perhaps my trip without family or frens will give me a small taste of wat being alone in a foriegn land will be like..

hui ting juz had her last day of work on saturday.. and shez leaving for hong kong for her studies on thursday.. cant wait for it to be my turn to say bye to work haha.. the trip shld move things along (:

started my frisbee again!! heehee~ beach frisbee yest was tHe bOMb haha.. super missed it manz.. or rather i missed the running ard lah.. if it was soccer it'll be even better haha.. cant wait to get my tan back.. in the mean time, i hope to clock more running time.. running the full marathon again bleah.. dunno wat im doing manz haha.. and i said i wld never do it again rite.. this year im only doing it for the tee hur! new balance is the new sponsor and i hope they dun disappoint me.. well, i prob wont do another full for awhile..

good thing is that this year i start training earlier and ive got people to train with (: went running with ben the other day.. means i can run at night and i can go further (: i'll slowly build up in the coming months.. hope to cover at least 20km in one run to condition my limbs so i wont hurt as much as last year.. im not taking leave so i hope i'll be ok haha..

mulled over and nervous

2009-07-13T09:17:00.004+08:00

itz been mulled and decided..
5 years it is.. double degree... *shakes head* im really nuts..
but i guess itz sank in.. not the money that i'll need tho haha.. itz thru the roof manz.. juz had a family meeting last nite as to how we will afford it.. itz gonna take the whOLe family and lOAsa sacrifices on both sides.. sigh. i guess the most ideal wld be if i cld get a scholarship over there aft my first sem.. gonna have to start saving more..

moving on.. project p is gearing up.. rehearsals are full blast with technical rehearsals and full dress coming up too.. alr we need to be in make up the coming sunday.. jieqiang and i kinda have our lines down.. i think now itz respondng to each otherz lines instead of reciting them, getting over the nerves and getting used to the stage.. sCAry!! haha.. im getting butterflies juz thinking abt it.. door gifts are settled.. ticket sales shLd pick up, we now have 198 tickets sold.. really hope to hit at least 200 more tickets.. fill up the sanct coz itz gonna be a great show..

oh yar! im playing frisbee tonite!! haha.. finally a free day that i can run ard and get some fitness.. itz juz different from running..

unexpected cross roads

2009-07-03T18:50:00.004+08:00

wat on earth lor..
cant believe im going thru this aLL over again..
deciding wat to do when i thought i decided 2 years ago..

human movement or dietetics and nutrition?
both 4 years.. both costs more.. or do a 5 year double degree in both haha..
i muz be nuts.. so much for having my 5-year plan.. itz all inked, crumpled, torn up and shredded now.. if im not doing exercise and sport nutrition, am i still gonna be at QUT? am i still even gonna be in brissy?! siGh.....

i have emailed QUT regarding my concerns of graduation prospects, and emailing my clinicz dietitian.. hopefully that will help me make a decision.. muz get in touch with my true interest and passions again.. what do i see myself doing long term when i really start working..

decisions decisions.. muz decide by end august..

pray. pray harder. where and what do you want me to do Lord.
open a door please! show me a path to go down..

hangers

2009-06-28T22:19:00.005+08:00

spoke to ling on the phone for tHREE hours yest :D dunno how long itz been manz.. it meant that i got really little sleep the night b4 one of my busiest days but it was well worth to hear my best frenz voice again and be myself on random issues that i can tell no one..

i wanted to blog abt sth but ive entirely forgotten abt it when i started typing bleah.. shall leave it as such until i rmb haha..

left hanging at 10:24pm

ive got a really long script to rmb.. and i need to get my drama queen out and be shameless on stage abt being all out the window drama.. my july schedule is pACked to the brim with all kinds of rehearsals manz; drama rehearsals, technical rehearsals, combined rehearsals, dress and full dress rehearsals.. plus ive got the ticketing and publicity side to worry abt..

that one seems to be ok at the moment.. hopefully ticket sales move or all the rehearsals might come to naught..

left hanging again at 10:35pm

how do you know uve got sth going on?

izzit when someone looks you in the eye and feel comfortable or when someone looks you in the eye and you have to look away in shyness?

izzit when you can joke ard and laugh out loud abt random things or when you find you dun mind putting in effort to think of a topic to laugh abt?

izzit when a guy doesnt check your list the conventional way and you dun mind plus feel entirely comfortable with him or when he checks every box to the tee, thinks hez the one but still feel slightly afar off?

thots at 10:50pm

i need a massage manz.. my rhomboids and trapz are rOCk hARd..
im sUper stiff.. someone help!!!!

bEEZy!!

2009-06-15T14:20:00.001+08:00

been bUSy as the bUSiest bee in the freakin hive!!!
work has been overwheLMing and sUper tiring..
and at church ive gotten myself invovled in Project P, a rays concert..
not juz involved but as part of main comm haha..
and i believe ive been roped in to do some acting and dancing too haha..
this shld be interesting.. havent done both in like 4years at least..

juz thot i shld blog so my besties can at lesat know im still alive hurhur~
ling!!! i need to talk to u on the phone!!!!!
i need to release some issues haha..

hey me!

2009-05-15T22:27:00.003+08:00

i had a really good celebration.. lots of people who turned up for me heehee~ u know, i feel younnger at 21 than at 20.. wierd rite haha..

anywayz, some photos from my party :D
or more likeguys that are good to look at hArhar~ ive alwayz been a guyz girl.. i believe i have more guy frens than girls.. the only girl frens i have are those that are really close (: those are the only ones that matter..

now i know how it feels like to be the belle (: itz not too bad.. but itz tiring having to talk to so many people eh.. well enjoy the photos of guys who drooled over me that nite, whether in my imagination or reality hArhar~

lOve my sisters.. and im still puzzled by weihaoz floppy hair..adam!! if ever i date a caucasian, it'll be someone like adam.. tall, easy going, eagered to blend with the family, really sporty and extremely frenly :D

needless to say..

the american kids that kept me running aft a lighted frisbee heehee~ lOve those nite games.. wish i had more time with you guys!!

and these crazy dudes haha.. from the left: charlton, samuel, nicodemus, andy, guozheng and eugene (:

eh juz two more..

2009-04-12T15:01:00.003+08:00

another idea to add to the wishlist!!
a bicycle!! that would be sUper dUper coOL :D
haha..

and another perfume to add to the list,
- D&G light blue (:

sUper dUper crazy curl of a ball

2009-04-06T16:45:00.004+08:00

oh my goOdness!! that come back goal from macheda was absolutely cRAZy!!! it was the spark that was lacking during the whole game.. that curl! i knew it was going in the moment the ball left his foot.. i was up and abt on my feet hopping crazy arms frailing haha..i will never forget the lead up to the goal and the celebrations aft.. hopefully we'll be celebrating like that at the end of the season (: with the biggest trophy haul people have ever seen :D

this was one comeback i didnt see coming.. but i guess with united, anyth is possible.. if an under par ronaldo can score 2 goals, then i guess an under par united with two rookies leading the pack can come back agst the 5th ranked team in england (:

wateva it is, itz a game to rmb and im glad i record every united game haha.. sets us up perfectly for wednesdayz champions league game (:

treat myself

2009-04-06T12:26:00.001+08:00

guess wat!!
i got myself a burfday prezzie haha..
a new handphone! :D
this photo is not of my phone but itz wat it looks like :D

more!!

2009-04-04T15:55:00.003+08:00

hoho.. ive thot of more things to add to the wish list :D
- mp3 player
- new handphone!! (my current one keeps shutting down!!)
- flat screen tv
- new dvd remote (almost all buttons on the current one are faulty)
- life time supply of cereal and milk :D
- life time subcription to UNITED magazine
- DKNY green apple perfume (:

too excited for my skin

2009-04-03T12:11:00.007+08:00

awww :( juz confirmed my bookings.. my 2 bbq pits arent together.. hopefully we can swap on that day with the other person.. "itz my 21st, cld you do me a favour?" :D i'll look too cute and they'll def say yes bwahaha.. and there wont be any function room coz itz alr been booked.. people are fast manz.. itz gonna be really crowded by the pool side manz.. dun even think there'll be enuff chairs.. i think muz bring our blue stools down.. and looks like i cant have a slide show of my photos alr :( oh well.. and hope it doesnt rain!!

ive decided wat to wear le!! heehee~ im getting so excited im jumping out my skin and wanna shout out my party ideas to everyone, but muz keep it a surprise :D im sO excited!! haha.. wish i had more cash to have more stuff at the party (: but i guess food and props doesnt make the party, i do.. bwahahaa.. :D im hoping to get a really good cake tho..

been bringing my lappy to work.. coz ive got long breaks and itz alwayz nicer to work on your own lappy rite.. the keys are so much more comfortable to type on.. and ive got a whOLe library of music.. im connecting with all the super old songs and surprising myself at how old i am alr haha.. songs of the old are still the best, better lyrics, more catchy, more meaningful, more moving (: im also doing my cg and bible study stuff, and bday stuff and i can blog!! which i havent done in eons..

thinking wat to have for lunch.. looks like it juz might be milo and crackers again.. ooh! juz rmbed ive got jam in the pantry fridge! yay.. crackers and jam.. some variety (:

sigh.. i think muz get back down to work, suppose to call a number of patients and do the workload count.. oh well..

2mnths past

2009-04-01T09:46:00.005+08:00

wOw.. itz crazy how time flies..
itz been more than 2mnths since ive posted anything.. at least better than vick haha..
well.. itz apr 1st!! and everyone knows i lOve april haha.. esp this year..
itz my 21st :D yeahyeah~

planning is under way and im writing out my invites :D email is best, coz ive got too many people on my list to sms haha.. ive currently close to a 100 pepz on my invite list, and itz alr been narrowed down.. quite exciting.. itz gonna be a pool side bbq and we've got a function room too (:
ive havent blogged in 2mnths so naturally many things have happened since.. romance might be brewing, my granddad passed away and cousins are now bonded thanks to a 5day wake and funeral hurhur~ ive got injured too.. my right arm is rendered useless with my bicep and tricep tendons injured haha.. sad case manz.. my workload work has greatly increased too explaining why i didnt have any time to blog and stuff haha.. ive lost 2kg then put back 1kg haha.. might be more but anywayz im hoping to be 52kg by my celebrations :D im 1.5kg away..

talking abt celebrations.. thot i'll put up a wishlist, subject to my crazy imagination haha.. and not in order..
- crumpler; backpack or sling also can
- a watch
- sneakers
- running shoes
- chunky rings
- money!! haha..
- a holiday
- lana choc cake!!
- hugs and kisses
- a new slim and light laptop
- watch a match at old trafford
- meet solskjaer!!
- manchester united to win it aLL
- play soccer pro
- play the guitar and piano
- perfect eyesight!
- new spectacles
- a higher metabolic rate haha..
- more time!!
- a special someone ~~ heehee

we'll see how many gets fulfilled come my birthday heehee~

moving into 2009

2009-01-10T17:52:00.002+08:00

:D life has been pretty goOd..
christmas and new year were great with good food and fellowship with family, extended family, frens back from overseas and church frens..
cg is starting soon.. and work is taking on a new direction with us to start a more enjoyable childrenz programme.. relationships with my colleagues are great :D
best of all, erjie is coming home soon!! heehee~ cant wait!!

2009 looks to be a blessed year.. as long as i keep working and not slack..
hope i get more chances to cook or bake this year.. doing christmas dinner was fUN and doing apple pies for people.. i can practically do apple pies with my eyes closed le haha..

im looking to build up to 2010 when i'll be studying in brissie, or even better in london heehee~ ideas to be at my dream uni has been reignited and im looking for ways to bring myself over to london metropolitian uni.. arh!!!! juz thinking abt the possiblity of me being in london sends chills of excitement down my spine.. i need to bring myself back down to earth haha..

ultiMAte!

2008-12-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

my company ssmc had team building with changi sports med on thursday.. we had these pro ultimate frisbee pepz come teach us how to play the game rite.. taught us to throw properly and all.. i perfected my fore hand throw :D

then we played some 3-on-3 ultimate.. i teamed up with dr kelvin from our clinic and dr ng from csmc and thrAshed the opponent manz.. haha.. aft awhile, i ended up being the only "non-frisbee" person playing with them.. this older guy told me ive got talent and play better than some of the frisbee league girls hurhur~ didnt know i had such talent haha.. ive only ever played in sbbc.. it was sUper fUN playing with them lah.. diving and all haha.. wat a rush and it really showed off that im a sports trainer bwahaha..

theyve since invited me to join the league and itz reALLy tempting.. theyve asked me to check out the league tmr at sengkang.. i think i juz might and i'll see how lah.. coz ive still got my soccer.. tho itz very tempting to make the switch coz i'll definitely be more accepted being a more eh chinese populated sport.. if u know wat i mean..

ive been thinking abt ultimate ever since thursday.. itz got me on such an adrenaline high.. havent been for awhile.. miss the feeling~~ juz thinking abt it now makes me wanna jump up and down haha.. ive alr got my boots, juz a diff sport haha..

sigh.

irish charm

2008-12-08T23:04:00.003+08:00

ooh guys.. go check out this seasonz x factor!! this 16 year old irish is cUTE lah!!! heehee~ simon is mUch happier on x factor.. he doesnt have to content with crazy americans haha.. and he gets to "control" and perfect his chosen artist.. and he gets to compete and win too haha.. i watched all of eoghanz clips today and some of the older constestants too..
go here http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=WaROdin&view=videos to watch aLL the x-factor vids, esp eoghanz.. hez really adorable.. love his irish accent haha.. and im a softy for his big hair haha..

bits and pieces

2008-12-08T13:49:00.003+08:00

so... ive done the full marathon.. and u muz think im crazy when i say it wasnt that bad.. i feel the same as when i ran the 10km only that my muscles are 4times as sore haha.. soreness definitely mUCH mUCH wORSe.. cld barely walk yest.. much better today thank goodness.. i juz cant squat very well.. my quads not functioning haha..

oh and therez this sUPer bad pain in my tailbone.. itz killing me manz.. itz like someone hit me in the tailbone with a baseball bat.. i fell on it b4, wondering if thatz why constant impact made it hurt this bad.. gonna consult the drs at my clinic..

the positive is that it really helps you lose weight hARhar~ juz in time for my company dinner and dance the coming saturday haha.. juz hope i can walk in my heels by then haha.. and i dun put on too much when i have free flow fries at this steak restaurant on wed with my seekers and the ben&jerryz on thurs with vick, ling and sarah haha.. might need to keep up the cardio provided i can even run haha..

hope this soreness doesn last.. it reALLy sucks, never want to feel this soreness ever again..

ooh yes.. ling and sarah are bACK!!! or rather ling will be back tmr.. we're gonna meet thursday and then picnic on 26th haha.. :D cant wait for my leave to come manz..

workz been busy coz of 2 exhibitions and a forum on all three weekends b4 my christmas week.. itz really crazy.. other than that.. my patient loadz been pretty easy coz most have gone on holiday or are not feeling well.. work environment has never been better.. i kept praying for a better working environment to switch to but it seems God has brought it to me.. :D

He has gradually changed the people i work with.. the new GM hui min is a christian as is the new sports trainer hui ting who took over callista.. even the new OM of SMG is a christian and itz really a blessing to have them ard.. the feeling in the clinic is much calmer and anyth we wanna bring up to change is much easier.. (: really thank God..

hope i can blog more this month.. esp with my christmas break (: itz quick how this year has passed.. ive alr been working coming to 8mnths.. juz another 12more months to go and im off back to sch!! :D cant wait..

im also starting the bible study with a couple of sbbc mates.. hope to have it start in jan.. we'll see how it goes.. (: hope it will bless our lives spiritually and mentally.. and may our frenship be strengthened in the Christ..

free time..

2008-11-02T00:35:00.004+08:00

u know ive been thinking..
blogging is for people who have free time on their hands and dun have much to do but think and ponder.. ive hadnt had time to do either.. sad huh.. or at least my pondering is done on the train and in my dreams haha..

had monday off coz it was deepavali, friday off coz i was on mc and sat off coz i took leave.. never been home so much in the past 6mnths.. cant wait for christmas week to come reALLy.. i wanna cook and bake and cook some more.. haha..

did some mini apple pies today.. not too bad.. but i think i'll do my own pastry the next time round, pre-made pastry is too buttery.. itz scary.. the apples i cooked with raisins, raw sugar, a cinammon stick, lemon and orange juice, orange zest.. really tasty :D oh, the apple piez gonna be dessert for christmas dinner.. im doing the starter and dessert for christmas.. (: really estatic abt it and i cant wait for christmas week to come..

oh yar, im sick right.. and i cant run.. im getting really depressed.. the last time i ran was tuesday nite.. feeling unhealthy and chubby tho im not really that bad.. but itz all abt feelings rite haha.. think im gonna push it and do a jog on monday.. mummy thinks i shld recover so i can run the marathon hur~ but thatz like a month away.. definitely shld be recovered by then.. i hope..

sweet september

2008-09-30T23:46:00.004+08:00

whee!! complimentary tickets :D
excited!! haha~

ruthz 21st.. themed green and ivory.. :D

coOLios :D good view huh..

sg lighted up (: see the long line of red and yellow seats..

little family outing (:

havent been in much of a mood with words.. photos are goOd enuff haha.. for now anywayz.. (:

time and season

2008-09-15T00:19:00.005+08:00

im feeling empty..

like therez nth going on in my life..

yet
not having much time to myself at all..
im either working, at football, at seekers, rushing to get things done b4 i slp.
working juz takes up most of my time. doesnt leave me much time for anyth else.
i dun even have time to exercise. im really getting fat.
unhealthy both physically and mentally..

erm. yar.
life is juz passing by.
sad hur.
im only 20 but my life is juz passing by like that.

working long hours again this week.
"I can do all things thru Christ which strengtheneth me." Phil 4:13

need to look past the next one half year.
cant wait to get back to sch.
to be doing what i really want to do.

meanwhile, may i see the positives in this life journey.
knowing everyth has itz time and season.
every experience a lesson.

reminder: surrender all.

utterings

2008-09-07T19:56:00.004+08:00

heyy all (:
been really reALLy beyond busy and not entirely in the mood to blog..
eh lots have happened.. thots and happenings in life..

top of the things on my mind..
i think that the guy that i'll end up with might actually be the total opposite of me.. wat do u think.. i mean, everyone needs someone to balance them rite.. to pull them up when down.. to pull them right when left eh wrong haha.. if hez too alike, will we go in the same direction? we'll be blind sighted wont we..

sigh.

okok. enuff rambling.. reminder of todayz sermon: ive surrended aLL to God and im rested in him. bcz he gives the bESt and he gives aBUNdantly..

other things on my mind. if i get funding for uni to leave in feb09, shld i go? that is if lah..
why i shldnt go:
1) i'll spend my 21st alone. and i'll hAte for that to happen
erm. wat else..
2) more time with christian frens
3) more time with ah meow

im thinking, i wanna approach mr lionel to see if nyp wants to sponsor part of or all of my studies in aussie.. i tOtally dun mind coming back to lecture in nyp in health science block or in sw starting a new module or wateva.. u think it'll work? hur~ i'll try newayz..

im now a regualr sub in the team.. when a teammate gets injured or tired or we're up by like lotsa goals, im one of those who go on.. thatz cooL huh.. got elbowed in the ribs yest, got a blue black juz left of my sternum..

my slots at work are all packed.. i guess itz a good and bad thing..
aft one saturday off, i feel all different and want more saturdays off.. i better not let this be a habit.. it drains me even more knowing what having a saturday off feels like hur~

hmm.. check out my facebook photos for the happenings in my life hur~
im never good with words.. im a touch person. thatz my love language hurhur~

great games!

2008-08-16T22:39:00.003+08:00

whee!! singapore has got our first olympic medal in 48yrs..
at the clinic, all the patients wanted the doors of the treatment rooms left open so they cld catch the match.. and my patient asked to be left on the cross trainer til aft the matches.. hARhar~ she ended up on the xtrng for an hour straight then went straight to the bike coz the matches werent done yet.. haha..

it was quite an experience, patients and colleagues on our feet and all eyes on the telly screaming and sighing.. haha.. very interesting day..

been watching the olympics everyday coz there are tellys in the gym.. and surprisingly, channel 5 has been televising the games from morning til abt 6-7pm.. not bad ar.. (: ive never watched sO much of the olympics b4 manz.. lOVe the mens' gymnastics esp and the synchronized diving.. juz simply amazing :D discovered 3 new cutie to oogle at too hARhar~

19 yr-old rookie kohei uchimura and his idol 28 yr-old hiroyuki tomita from the jap gymnastics team :D oh.. and youngest brit olympian 14 yr-old diver tom daley.. hArhar~ how am i suppose to find an older guy like this haha..

heavy gold.

2008-08-10T23:21:00.004+08:00

im chubby le..
all the hours of working ot leaves me with little time to myself,
little time to exercise..
no time for training either..
bLeah.

gonna get into the habit of forcing myself to run.

havent been in blogging mood recently.
not in a talking mood for that matter.
silence is gold. right?

upfront

2008-08-06T22:03:00.003+08:00

lOvelOvelOve playing upfield manz.. heehee~
im sUper surprised coach pushed me up to striker.. had the time of my life on monday :D
im sUper ecstatic at the possiblity of me playing upfront during the league..
but im keeping my hopes under wraps hur~
also paid the price of playing upfront where everyone tackles u haha..
i take it as a compliment manz.. my toez sore again and got a whiplash aft being tackled and landing hard on my left shoulder.. kinda disappointed i cant make it for trng on thursday :( playing striker has always been a dream.. but bcz i lacked the skills, i didnt think i was suitable for it.. but i think i make up for it with my tactical knowledge and vision.. and speed :D
itz so relaxing upfront lah.. concentrate on enjoying the game more haha.. defending isnt a priority and thus i am better when called upon to do it.. ironic huh..

so anywayz, some explaination on my previous posts..
i was feeling mediocre and depressed that everyone seems to be having the perfect life except me.. feeling bitter and depressed and all.. havent felt so shitty since secondary sch days of lame image issues..
but God was moulding me, surfacing the insecurities that needed to be surrendered to him.. i am much better now.. i am complete in Jesus Christ Amen! :D all that i am, all that i want and need is surrendered and His.. may you, reading this post, have the same peace i have now.. (:

grOwing

2008-08-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

Steadfastness, that is holding on;
Patience, that is holding back;
Expectancy, that is holding the face up;
Obedience, that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do;
Listening, that is holding quiet and still so as to hear.

"Quiet Talks on Prayer"
- S.D. Gordon

1 Peter 5:10
"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you."

Yes to God always leads in the end to joy.
We can absolutely bank on that.

i am my best me

2008-07-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

i am my bEst me.
im coming back stronger.
watch out.

at the bottom of it

2008-07-24T00:25:00.003+08:00

self doubt.
itz powerful.

juz a little prettier.
juz a little more well-off.
juz that much smarter.
that bit more talented at something.
a step up in someonez eyes.

depressing.
draining.
sucks the life out of you.

everthing but mine

2008-07-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

itz happening again!? why.
disillusioned. tears roll.
heart and head in a mess.
tired. very tired.
honestly.
gonna stay curled under my blanket.
mayb shed a tear for myself.
why is it always everything but mine.

When I say..

2008-07-21T20:12:00.003+08:00

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living"
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need Christ to be my guide

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God thinks I am worth it.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

by Maya Angdou
taken from Yan Ye

at peace

2008-07-11T01:22:00.001+08:00

at peace
may we grow closer as frens in Christ

what they didnt report in the news

2008-07-11T01:10:00.001+08:00

Yo people, read this.. (:
http://community.livejournal.com/sg_snapshots/897028.html

how brown cow

2008-07-08T23:40:00.003+08:00

im trying to be very realistic and not follow-the-heart kinda thing..
use my head more know wat i mean..
thing is, i keep thinking abt him!
haha.. talk abt using my head more haha..
sigh how now brown cow..

how greAt is our God

2008-07-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

"12Who hath measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, and meted out heaven with the span, and comprehended the dust of the earth in a measure, and weighed the mountains in scales, and the hills in a balance?
13Who hath directed the Spirit of the LORD, or being his counsellor hath taught him?
14With whom took he counsel, and who instructed him, and taught him in the path of judgment, and taught him knowledge, and shewed to him the way of understanding?
15Behold, the nations are as a drop of a bucket, and are counted as the small dust of the balance: behold, he taketh up the isles as a very little thing.
16And Lebanon is not sufficient to burn, nor the beasts thereof sufficient for a burnt offering.
17All nations before him are as nothing; and they are counted to him less than nothing, and vanity."

Isaiah 40:12-17

isnt it amazing how big our God is.. He can hold the waters of the world in his palm, and even a country as a burnt offering is scarce sufficient.. yet so many times we have made him so small.. many times we have said with God nth is impossible but how many times have we really believed it..

Sundayz sermon was one to put things into perspective, that we are no one yet in God's eyes are someone and we are lOved.. the God we trust in is indeed the Almighty, the Author and Finisher.. the One who can solve all our problems because he is above all, above circumstances and I truly thank God for that..

Amen.

super duper cool

2008-06-27T12:17:00.004+08:00

wOw.. wat a feeling to be home at 12nn and being able to slp in and all.. itz been a long time or rather 3mnths really.. haha.. i still have to work later tho but still, itz such a feeling esp when i work saturday mornings as well..

been checking out reALLy sUper dUper coOL women's soccer boots online.. this is the one im DYINg to get.. itz the nike first2 team FG women's soccer boot.. sWEET rite.. sigh.. dun think sg has it tho.. im tempted to juz indulge and buy it online.. itz only US$34.99 and prob cheaper to get it online than here in sg even with the shipping.. they also have one in black with rose pink lining.. that onez pretty sweet too :D i'll see how lah.. if i really cant find a nice pair of boots, i might resort to buying this online.. hee~

no wallflower

2008-06-24T00:16:00.003+08:00

wAh.. ive got a really bruised forehand.. my soccermate stepped on my hand when i was down.. dun wOrry! it was an accident.. oh, my pinkyz crooked now :( looks weird.. wonder if itz gonna be permanent.. hope my forehand isnt injured juz bruised..

well, i think it was a pretty worth it day of soccer.. :D i played left mid and second strike.. had thE bLASt of a time and itz been quite awhile since ive enjoyed my soccer like that.. haha.. itz been months of playing centreback and defence and that means zero sparks from me.. today was crAzy, one touch passing and thru balls from me.. heehee~ lOVEd lOVEd it..

u know, i lOVe being a girl.. that we can wear pants and skirts, be tomboy and girly at the same time and not be called gay haha.. play guy sports and be called gungho and hot bwahaha.. while guys will become the butt of jokes if they play girl sports..

but the one thing that has recently been a sad thing abt being a girl is the lack of girls to get together to play a recreational 11-a-side field game.. im all itchy to get together with a team of guys and improve my skills and movement and reading.. it really helps to play with guys.. and the fact that i have time to turn on the ball coz guys dun tackle girls too hard.. haha.. so, this is a call out to guys who wld like a girl in their team.. i promise im not a wallflower tho i can be the flower in the team.. hee~

sustenance

2008-06-14T23:13:00.005+08:00

have been working ot the whole week.. bleah.. sUper sianz.. didnt have time to do my workouts and havent been able to go to the toilet bcz of that.. haha.. im amazed that i survived still being pretty good natured.. before, i think i wld have been really cranky and upset le.. thAnk God for sustaining me.. the ot pay is another sustenance.. haha.. i look forward to my lunch break everyday, to be fed physical and spiritually.. doing my qt in the middle of the day in the garden juz outside the office is the perfect way to calm myself down of all the unpleasant happenings that might have happened in the day..

cant believe that ive been waking up early at like 7ish everyday.. never since sec sch have i woken up this early for such a sustained period.. 8weeks le leh, hope time flies even faster and i can go to aussie.. hur~

my pay has been withered into juz a $100.. $650 to savings acc, $104 to my new leather bag, 10% tithes, $150 return to dj, $84 gym membership, $100 transport.. bleah.. im "broke" liaoz.. good and bad lah.. with GSS, i might overspend if ive got money.. and if no money, i dun spend at all or sadly, no money to buy wat i want.. haha.. im alr looking forward to my next paycheck in 3weeks..

not leaving juz yet

2008-06-05T00:09:00.004+08:00

hmm.. a note for all..
im deferring my uni studies by a year, meaning til feb2010.. itz disappointing but i know God has a reason for me to stay one more year in sg.. i guess it has itz positives, for one, i'll be celebrating my 21st birthday in sg!! yAy.. :D and i'll have a year with rays and get to know more christian frens.. hur~

oh yar, itz deferred unless i get 20,000 to pay off for at least a year of sch.. hurhur~

dedahday!!

2008-06-04T22:31:00.003+08:00

jia xin and i.. a premed student.. she knows joshua li!! (:
rays photo!
my cg..
the crazy organizing comm camwhoring.. haha.. one of the many photos of them taken..
my cg again.. :D

so it was de-dah-day at sentosa.. a combined rays event, all the youth in covenant.. (: had water games. duh.. haha.. a little frisbee.. (: made lotsa new frens, getting to know youths outside our own cg, bonding as rays.. getting to know each other b4 serving together in woodlands.. too bad for the rain coz i wanted to get a tan.. but considering the rain, we managed to squeeze quite a bit of fun out.. (: thanks to org comm!!

who will be my shade and leaves

2008-06-04T01:40:00.001+08:00

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, let the cold winds blow

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

Barry Louis Polisar "All I Want Is You"

short one..

2008-06-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

heehee~ went for rays event de-dah-day at sentosa on saturday.. too bad it rained.. but it was still fun.. :D shall post the photos up soon..

thot i'll keep u updated that im still alive.. haha..

SW05 graduates.. :D

2008-05-25T20:21:00.003+08:00

following the utd win, another great day has arrived.. graduation!! :D was quite excited.. and watching people troop into school carrying the coat bags with our gowns inside.. cldnt stop a smile when i saw my classmates.. (: and then walking into the room where we all started to change into our gowns.. we look mUch better as a cohort wearing the gown then when trying it on at home.. haha.. and itz been awhile since uniformity.. therez juz sth abt it that makes u feel like a whole pack and it juz makes u smile.. been awhile since we all wore our sw tees at the same time.. so yar, uniformity is sth we miss in poly.. but that is made up in so many ways.. the hands-on learning way, the very current affairs education we enjoy, and of coz the real world experience that is invaluable..the crazy photos are fun manz.. (: everyone had their cameras out making photo memories..

and talking to my coursemates.. quite a few are going overseas.. some as early as next month.. sigh.. helenaz going to lb, london.. jason to UQ, stacy and joan to UWA.. if only i had the financial strength they have.. the nearer the date comes for me to leave for brissy, the more it seems the date will be moved to feb 2010.. sigh.. itz a great disappointment that breaks my heart but i will accept His decision.. His time is best and will be made beautiful.. therez a reason for me to be in singapore for a year more and i will find out what is to come shld He decide for me to really stay..

champions of england, and now europe.

2008-05-25T19:58:00.003+08:00

haha!! i cant believe i didnt blog abt utd wINNing the chAMPions league lah.. hahaa..
the morning was a cRAZY one manz.. haha.. was hoping that utd wld win it in regulation time so i wldnt die at work the next day, and they really shld have manz.. hur~ i never did like things going to penalties.. my heart was beating sO fast lah.. had to remind myself to breathe coz i kept holding my breath.. haha.. i was probably juz as nervous as the players.. haha..

u know, when i saw ronaldo walking to the spot, i had a bad feeling.. and apparently peiyi did too.. she also said "i think he'll miss leh".. i was like yar, me too but i dun say it out coz it alwayz jinx things when u do.. and then seconds later, ronaldo reaLLy missed.. haiz.. wonder why things always work that way.. thot utd lose liao.. esp when john terry walked up to take chelseaz last penalty.. all really to shut the tv off and cry and think of the zombie day at work suffering the lost of slp and lost of the trophy.. who knew manz.. haha.. john terry, mr chelsea, mr captain who saved chelsea from losing from a giggsy strike earlier sLipped!! hARhAR~ amazing stuff.. cldnt believe my eyes.. haha!! almost killed peiyi when i jumped on her seeing terry miss the penalty.. haha.. and how fitting that giggsy shld be the one to score the last penalty.. (: didnt think that anelkaz penalty wld have been saved.. amazing stuff..

van der sar hadnt been convincing the whole match but managed to do well during the shootout.. how interesting he started the season saving penalties agst chelsea to win the charity shield and now ended the season in the same way but winning the biggest prize.. :D

peiyi and i were jUMping all over the place like tom cruise jumping on the sofa.. haha.. went crazy lah.. cld finally breathe properly.. made the zOMbie day at work all worth well.. hee~

graduating

2008-05-23T12:12:00.002+08:00

heehee~ itz graduation day.. gonna see my class and course mates.. (:
amazing 3 years has past and im a very different person from when it all started.. part of me has been thanx to my class and finally being with a bunch of people who understood my passion of sport and the extent of importance it holds to me.. so herez to a great graduation and may we always keep in touch.. no excuses now with facebook and frensters.. :D
the photos shall follow soon after.. :D

meet joe black

2008-05-19T19:43:00.003+08:00

we're watching meet joe black again.. hur~ (: it never gets old huh..
"stay open, lightning might strike" wat a hopeful line..

cOughcough

2008-05-18T00:28:00.004+08:00

im much better now.. but ive still got a hoarse, sexy, guy voice.. choose one of the adjectives.. haha.. im still a bit stone tho.. haha.. at work i take in only half of watz said then end up looking for wrong patient.. very bad very bad.. hur~ oh now my cough is the kind where when u start coughing, even drinking water wont stop it.. super xian..

went out for dinner with begum and vick today.. ahha.. had a really good time laughing and making fun of begum and her ac.. haha.. btw vick, thot of another J for begum, jack daniels.. bwahaha.. had to start going our separate ways when i started to yawn, we were starting to stone and shirrin struggled to stay awake.. haha..

oh, i think that the zinger fish is a better alternative to the original zinger.. haha.. less fatty.. hur~

fever causing havoc

2008-05-12T20:38:00.003+08:00

my goOdness.. been having a 38.5degree fever since this aftn.. was perfectly fine last nite until the utd match when i started to feel a sore throat.. woke up with a burning throat and puffy eyes, decided not to go to work.. itz a good thing coz i developed a really high fever.. feeling groggy and a little nauseous..

kinda annoying coz im working now and have patients.. have to call them to mess up their schedule.. bleh.. and this patient alr switched his appt once..

everytime i get sick, itz always a big one.. itz a good thing really.. haha..

thinking abt it

2008-05-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

昰我想太多
可能想太多
最别想太多

blushing touched

2008-05-07T22:44:00.004+08:00

overflowing with joy and thankfulness..
never thot i'll be thot abt in such a thotful way..
so overwhelmed and touched..
blushing with tears..
sweet manz..

celebrations..

2008-05-05T00:30:00.007+08:00

so it seems there are many who celebrate their burthdays early may.. :D i had my celebration on say and i have two cg mates whose birthdays are tmr.. joel held his 21st celebration today and mark will have his next sat.. some photos to rmb the celebrations.. (:

the first time ever to have my name on my cake.. heehee~ that was special lah.. esp when i didnt even expect to have a cake.. the cousins ordered it!! :D and the candles.. haha.. the two candles show that im (my fav number) twenty and at the same time my jersey number.. hhaa..
cam whoring in the mirror.. there were many more.. haha..
at joelz party.. (: from the left: me, janie(in my shadow), angeline, howie and guo zheng..the birthday boy joel and i.. (: introducing baby face.. haha.. he plays the organ in the worship team on sundays..

guo zheng and i.. the die hard utd fans.. dun mess with us!! haha..
guo zheng gave me a nike top for my birthday.. (: and it was wrapped in this.. haha.. sweet rite.. thatz juz funny lah.. never wld i have thot of doing that.. kudos manz.. (: for people who dunno wat that crest is, itz the man utd crest.. haha.. and happy birthday has replaced the words manchester united.. :D

twenty forever

2008-04-30T03:39:00.002+08:00

hUrray!! im twenty20.. haha.. wish i cld be twenty forever juz bcz itz my favourite number.. haha.. itz like 3.40am now.. half time during the man utd vs barcelona semis with utd leading one-nil thru a scholes screamer.. hee~ itz looking good, but barce have the ability to score so utd have to continue pressing..

oLE!!! itz all over and a very hAppy bURfday to me.. hARhar~ utd beat barcelona one nil and we're on our way to moscow for the finals.. hahahahahhaahha... :D kiCk on!! im gonna have a reALLy goOd day despite me working the 12-9 shift.. haha.. :D cant peel this smile off my face.. hahahahaha.. woOhOO!!

shall carry on celebrating in my dreams.. laterz.. haha..

from now on itz boys only

2008-04-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

im sUper high from yest lah.. playing with guys is sO much more fun!! itz like therez a special connection so much so i didnt even find the need to get to know their names.. hur~ thatz wat i call communication lah.. gives me little motivation to go for girls training.. haha.. sad case..

the guys i played with are the most skillful chinese guys ive ever seen lah.. like cristiano ronaldo skillful.. stepovers, turns and all that.. haha.. amazing.. very fun to watch but not that amusing to play agst.. haha.. they nutmegged me a couple of times.. haha.. but i nutmugged a few of the guys too.. bwahahaha.. blocked a few chances, created quite a few goals and i almost scored one but it hit the cone.. bleah.. sad case.. but itz giRL pOWER anywayz!! haha.. brownie points!! heehee~

im still giggling!! hARhAR~~~ :D
therez a tingle in my tummy.. heehee~
adrenaline and more.. *holding back a big smile so i dun look like an idiot* hee~~

giggling

2008-04-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

im giggling!! hurhur~ havent done that in awhile.. hur...
thinking of nice sparkly brown eyes.. hurhur~

idiot

2008-04-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

im in a bAd moOd now.
want to strangle the stupid linesman who gave the penalty.
- idiot.

wheee..

2008-04-22T22:18:00.003+08:00

and so work has started.. hmm.. not much yet really..
and i havent sign my contract juz yet coz information was late arriving and i have to wait..
read the employee handbook alr tho, took me an hour to read the whole thing.. company covering their arses.. haa.. im hoping to sign my contract tmr or latest thursday.. terrible ar.. start work b4 signing contract.. hur~

herez a really coOL clause tho.. every year i have $300 worth of medical claims.. meaning if i get sick and see the doc, i can claim 50% or $50 of my doctorz fees whichever is lesser.. the coOL part is that for me to claim all these, one of my claims mUZ be from a dentist.. haha.. or i lose all my claims.. haha.. coOL rite.. :D it'll commence effect aft my 3mnth probation.. (:

ooh.. update: peiyiz joined soccer and according to her, shez enjoying it.. hARhar~ my teammates are calling her "song".. haha.. u know why? coz they call me sing.. bwahahahaha.... they tried "ah pei", "peipei".. haha.. decided that song was best.. too bad.. haha.. :D
im playing soccer on sunday with guozheng and some church people.. heehee~ exciting.. (:
im trying to lose my fats by running everyday, and gaining muscle by doing weights with dj.. (: im looking more like a sports trainer now.. haha..

the end of the soccer season is nearing and itz getting really exciting.. heehee.. therez champions league semis this thursday morning.. 1st leg agst barcelona away and then the home leg on the morning of my birthday... hurhur~ im quietly confident tho im not sure if blogging it out still makes it quiet.. hARhar~ and of coz therez chelsea away this saturday where utd can secure our 1oth title in 15years if we win.. but still be top of the table w 2 games to go if we draw.. :D let the winning begin.. haha..

happy 1st joe!!

2008-04-20T01:21:00.004+08:00

hee~ itz ah meOwz 1st birthday!! :D herez joejoe in his birthday hat.. haha..

itz from a corner cut off from one of djz bag-making projects.. hee~ cute rite.. any birthday wishes made in the tagger will be passed on to joe.. so wish away.. hARhAR~ :D

blogging sentences

2008-04-19T18:35:00.005+08:00

i lOve dreaming.. haha.. the other nite i dreamt that i was at the gym dreaming that i was aslp.. harhar~ then i woke up and released that "ooh.., im reaLLy aslp.." harhar~ weird manz..

shall add a cloud blog too.. hur~

the second photo is a paranomic view taken using my new cam.. coOL huh.. hee~ the clouds were making this interesting pillar agst the sunset.. (: can see the "cloud line" too.. hurhur~

itz here

2008-04-18T19:33:00.001+08:00

and so... im starting work monday.. hur~ finally.. signing the contract tmr morning.. i shall confirm my pay with you guys tmr.. haha..