beautiful disaster
this is starrystarrytwenty
"No, there is no escape.
There is no heaven with a little hell in it -
no plan to retain this or that of the devil in our hearts or our pockets
Out Satan must go, every hair and feather."
- GEORGE MACDONALD
"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen:
not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
- C.S. LEWIS
Thursday, February 25, 2010
i miss home when...
i hear mummy, daddy, piglet, erjie and dajie's voice..
i hear that the cats are rubbing my shoes to get my scent..
piglet wants to record kpop but forgets im not ard..
you guys email or leave msges saying im missed..
sunday comes ard and i dun have a church..
i have no one to hug..
i cant go out on my own aft dark..
i cant be my crazy self..
i know im gonna miss my cousin's 21st..
i dun hear korean spoken all the time..
i went to hillsongs and had a blast at worship like i wld in covenant..
i cant fellowship with u guys..
insects appear on my room floor and i have to smAsh them..
i have to save and watch every cent i spend..
a stranger is the one at my room door and not my sister..
i re-read the cards written to me..
i dun hear my sisters talking while im on my bed..
i feel uncomfortable in my own room..
i dunno wat im reading in my chem mod subject outline..
im craving bak kwa and pineapple tarts..
i havent even heard myself say lah or loh for a few days..
im sure the list grows the longer i stay bcz home is still the best place on earth..
or maby it'll shorten.. hopefully it does..
i guess im not being myself now, i usually embrace the new haha..
keep reminding myself that ive worked too hard and too long to get here..
and that God's everlasting love keeps me afloat and itz striving for me to succeed..