beautiful disaster
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"No, there is no escape.
There is no heaven with a little hell in it -
no plan to retain this or that of the devil in our hearts or our pockets
Out Satan must go, every hair and feather."
- GEORGE MACDONALD
"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen:
not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
- C.S. LEWIS
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
tragedy
had my second match yesterday.. it was agst overseas family sch.. these girls were bigger built compared to the sas girls.. taller and stuff.. i tried to push them subtly but they didnt budge.. so i went ahead and really tried to push them.. u know, even then, they dun move??!! itz crazy..!! anywayz.. the match didnt go as planned.. as before i started on the left.. the match started at 5ish and the sun was killer.. it totally zapped all my energy.. i cld tell i wasnt as fast as usual and my stamina sucked.. i was walking alot and i cldnt sprint.. my coach wanted to take me off aft like 20mins coz i looked tired.. but i told him to hold on.. it turned out to be a crucial and bad decision coz a few minutes later, i was down on the ground crying in excruciating pain felt in my right ankle..i realised that i cant push them away.. but if i stepped in front of them, they back off slightly and i wld be able to win the ball like that.. i did it a few times already.. this time when i tried to front step her, i half stepped on her boot instead and not having proper grding, my ankle turned outwards and there it goes.. my old injury is back.. i was carried off the field in pain.. i cldnt even put my foot on the grd.. the swelling came immediately.. it was terrible.. good thing daddy was there, aft the match, i had him to help me home..was suppose to work today but i cldnt even walk from my bed to the bathroom this morning.. i quickly phoned my boss and let them know of the unfortunate situation..i have a really really bad feeling abt this.. i still cant walk, im on crutches ard the hse.. every position my ankle is put in feels uncomfortable.. itz constantly throbbing and itz still very swollen.. it juz recovered from the sprain a mnth ago and im suppose to get the clear 'ure well' from doc tan in two weeks.. but this thing has to happen.. hopefully i'll be well by the 25oct when therez a 7-a-side tournament where only the non-malay girls are playing coz itz the fasting mnth.. i hope itz not a torn ligament that will sideline me for another 6mnths at least.. that will really really break my heart all over again.. i cant describe the fear i have in not being able to play soccer or run ard.. the last time it happened it was heart-breaking.. this time it wld shatter into a gazillion pieces..anywayz.. the match ended with us winning 6-1.. wasnt really fair coz the girls from ofs were really new.. we played alot of our seniors in the second half.. i think all but one of the goals were scored by them.. hahaa..the ofs girls were nice tho.. aft the match we all took a photo together.. (: nice girls they are..im not in a very good mood coz of my ankle.. been a bit teary coz im really worried n upset.. i guess itz all in Godz will.. i muz rmb that.. everyth has a reason..and so my injury list stands like this aft juz 6mnths of football:- swollen lip- bruised right ankle- studs in right shin- knock on right shin- 2 sprained left ankle(the latest one from the sas match)- blue black thigh- knock on jaw(from sas match)- sprained right ankle(ofs match)
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