starrystarrytwenty

beautiful disaster

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"No, there is no escape.
There is no heaven with a little hell in it -
no plan to retain this or that of the devil in our hearts or our pockets
Out Satan must go, every hair and feather."
- GEORGE MACDONALD

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen:
not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
- C.S. LEWIS

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

sheesh..

i have conflicting feelings i cannot describe.. wat kind of 14 yr old will tell u on the fone that he misses u.. and that ure hot.. itz crazy.. hez 3 yrs younger than me for goodness sakes.. he hasnt even taken his Os.. far from it even!! not like i like like him or wat.. first time in 7years ive seen him and he starts to hit on me.. a girl 3 yrs older..!! itz juz crazy..!!

funny thing is that i feel good whenever he msgs me.. i think itz juz a general thing u feel when a guy compliments u.. i still stick to wat is sorta my bf check list.. that he shld be my age or older.. if not, how wld he relate to wat im going thru or how i feel..? know wat i mean.. he hasnt even done his Os yet.. howz he gonna understand wat im going thru in poly and stuff.. so i dont think he'll ever become my u know wat..

i met bryan tay at my counter at box office on sunday.. i was quite in a shock.. my ears that were already red became even redder and warmer.. hez hot in the flesh juz as he is in the pictures.. itz only my second time seeing him in person.. hez looks better than b4.. we had a really fun time msging juz aft we met and thru the nite til we slpt.. funny thing, i also talked to that 14year old boy that nite well i was msging bryan.. as opposed to bryan, we have significantly lesser things to talk abt.. we were on conference call so i did a lot of talking to the others and when it was juz the 2 of us.. it juz felt awkward.. itz good to know ure attractive tho.. wahhahaa..

hmm.. ling n i and the gang are going to sentosa on sat.. so yar.. (: i plan to have loadsa fun.. we've invited the 2s2 gang as well.. haha.. itz gonna be a reunion i hope.. (:

i cant wait for sch to start.. cant wait to get out of cathay.. starting to really hate the place.. i dont think i can do another stint there.. cathay is really getting on my nerves.. they kept calling me today on my off day to ask me to get to come early tmr coz someone cant make and stuff.. so iRRitating.. pissed off.. like get out of my life already.. the ironic thing is that i wanted to work there.. shit. itz so irritating..

hmm.. my ankle has gotten better.. dont need the help of clutches anymore.. but it still hurts one full week aft the injury.. def not a good sign.. i hope itz juz rest that it needs.. im starting to think i might miss the ofs 7-a-side tournament on 28oct.. sigh.. that wld really really suck.. but if itz by docz orders, i'll rather miss the tournament than let my injury bcum wat it was b4.. a torn ligament that put me out 2 n a half years..